i want to give little parts of myself to everybody and all of it to one person. i feel most okay with my body when i’m standing naked in front of the mirror before i shower. then i put some clothes on and step outside the house and see other people and i don’t feel so good anymore. sometimes i wish more people knew the real me. and then again i dont.
I found this from an old online diary entry from 2005 when I was in LA. Reading through my entries is a bit embarrassing but I’m still glad its there. Its incredible how much I’ve changed.
I’m not as shy as I used to be…I think this quote still hits home sometimes.
Also, from 2004:
I feel empty. I need something. Something real that makes me want to smile and cry at the same time. Where are you? When will you get here?
I’m so happy to have found him. Finally.